high-budget fear

I watched a scary movie with some friends tonight.

The movie was awful.

While I was watching it, I had a hard time paying attention to the "Low-Budget" fear on the small glowing screen. Instead, I was distracted by what I am truly afraid of.

I'm not afraid of the dark. I'm not afraid of spiders.

I'm afraid of what you can't put in a horror movie.

Rejection.

Failure.

Anger.

Sadness.

They haunt me much more than ghost and ghouls and with a much more powerful force.

I couldn't quit thinking about it.

Why? Because they hurt.

That's "High-Budget" fear.

That's what I'm afraid of.

A cat behind a fence.

I met a cat today. He was in the construction yard. A fence separated us.

Enough about cats.

The other day I was walking with a friend. We had a nice view of a sunset:

friend: "Man, don't you wish you had your camera?"
me: "No."
friend: "What? Why?"
me: "Because some things are just meant to be looked at."

Photographers can sometimes get caught up in just taking pictures and creating images all the time.

They never take time to cherish.

If my only goal is to capture beauty rather than admire it, then I will become an emotionless machine whose only goal is visual kleptomania.

A sunset. A beautiful woman's face. A cat behind a fence.
See for yourself.